well.
school started
kinda stress for this term
project on banquet operations
2nd day of sch received that BIG BOMB
PROJECT . lol

mon . sch
tue . bomb received
wed. went back to band
thurs.
went to hyatt to get information from Gary.
thanks gray =D
went to hotels with alicia and chris
the funny thing was . we were from different group

went hyatt. marriot. crown at orchard . hotel phoniex . sha villa.
then chris went back

me and alicia went ocbc tec
to get some info.
then went petals coz i got to see mr lua
then saw ernern.
alicia went off.
me and ern ern went to penisular hotel and grand plaza parkroyal
some were nice some weren't

fri. sch. boring day.

but wat i can say if
we are super noisy !.
especially when A and B class are side by side on friday.
COOLNESS =D

we are the DHM 0405 INTAKE.
the noisy intake. lol

today. went to work in the morning.
set up the buffet with grace.
went home after work.
changed . slacked . stoned.
went to alumni band with melia
was alright in the beginning.
then something happen.
i don't blame u for angry with me.

was really down after hearing that.
really really down.
or maybe perhaps coz i am tired.
i look at the attendance
i seriously dont understand
why can't ppl just spend sometime and come down
if u can't make it. at least have the courtesy to sms me
imagine u waiting at the hall. till 8.
wat u see is just a small group of ppl

3 trumpets.
1 bassoon.
1 trombone.
1 french horn.
2 double bass.
1 flute.
1 clarinet.
4 percussionist.

kinda disappointed with the attendance.
but i told myself to persereve on .
although i am really tired. really tired
saw ahguang just now at mac.
although it is since a long time that i saw him.
i really miss 4A4. those wonderful classmates
yesh. i still did not cheer up

i tried eating ice-cream.
if only eating ice-cream cheers one up , i think i should be happy now.
walked along lentor ave after alighted the bus.
watching the busy traffic. as cars passed by me.

on my way home.
i took the long way.
the way where it is being lighted by dim lights.
shadows of trees casted by the spotlights that are shining on them.
listening to songs.
slow songs with guitar playing softly at the background

i wondered.

wat if.
lots of wat if.

wat if 10 years ago .
i did not give in to my parents for deciding to transfer sch.
from marsiling pri to naval base pri.
i wonder how my life was.
although just being in marsiling for one year plus. i really miss that sch
that garden with the rock fountain in the middle
that big sch.
my best buddy then.
fellow malaysian yaolong.
shiying.
yaolong . shiying and me . the 3 always seen standing outside class as Mrs Eunos chased us out of her class.
ms tan . my favourite chinese teacher.

i wonder wat if i did not opted for EM1 in P4
i got seperated from my best friends then.
chien ping and kahing.
and we drifted apart coz we were different class.

i wonder. wat if i kept my promise when i was in p2.
to quit piano and music for good.
will i still be in the band ?
will i still be playing piano if i did not quit .

i wonder . wat if i did not give up on art classes in P5 ?
i really miss those art lessons with the art teachers at the Creative Art Studio .
located a few houses away from my house in malaysia.

i wonder. wat if my uncle did not pass away when i was in Sec 2.
will life be better now ?
will the company business be better then before ?
i know for certain . i will be back in malaysia.
living in that bungalow that i grew up.
that house that i always love.
coz i know i belonged there.

i wonder . wat if i went into SJAB when i was sec 1
if i did not put band as my first choice ?
but i knew . i did not regret joining band
i missed that year that we got out COP.
although we got COP . but . we had lots of fun that year
going out to perform for public performance.

i wonder how are all my long lost friends.
michael . my malaysia neighbour.
samantha. that pretty eurasian girl
we promised to marry one another when we grew up.

i wonder how is my kindergarden now.
Jack And Jill . located at the top of the hill
with abandan old malay style houses by the hillside.

i wonder.
wat if i went into MI instead of Shatec
but i know. i never regret coming to shatec
coz i know lots of wonderful friends. and i gain lots of new experience.

the song ended. and i reached home.
while unpacking my stuffs.
i looked at the percussion photos and some other photos of bandmates
the retirement card and the retirement gift that my juniors made for me when i step down.
it simply made me remember those old days.
and i realise.
all of us grew up.
gone were the days when hussaini was still sec 1.
charlene sec 2.
and jannah and siraj were sec 3
all those smiles on the photos.
the photos taken during racial harmony day. passing over ceremony. botanic garden.

although i am i hopeless percussionist.
i still have the passion in playing percussion instruments.
from snare drum . to bass drum to cymbal in sec 1
to mallets from sec 2 onwards.
although i played nonsences.
i still played .

well now. i seem to lost the passion of playing.
perhaps my juniors were correct.
i really can't play
i was all along a useless and hopeless percussionist who taught that i could make music together with the band.

but i really missed those marching days.
i really missed.
but those days will always stay as good wonderful memories .

nothing seemed to cheer me up now.
but i know one thing for sure.
i am not giving up alumni band.
not even when ppl gave up on alumni band.
all i know. i treat alumni band as my baby.


well . i shall end this post now.
thanks for reading.
shall blog. when i feel like.
but meanwhile. i am still in a horrible mood.

till then.

 11:51 PM

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